(Photo credit: My lovely best friend Rebecca Snarr)
I took a mental health weekend. If anyone here has never taken a mental health day or couple of days, they should strongly consider it. I am a firm believer in taking time for yourself, to unwind, examine your thoughts and just breathe.
Every now and again I just need some time to rewire, to think about where I am, what I am doing and where I want to be. Some times are more difficult than others and taking stock of what is going through your head is never simple. You have to be ready to analyze and face certain aspects about yourself that you might not like.
I decided to go home for the weekend, being home back in Norfolk is one of the best places I know where I can escape the daily routine and just have fun. All of my closest friends are there, my family is there, etc. It is warm and it is welcoming and I know my loved ones that are there are always willing to lend a helping hand or shoulder to lean on.
I’ve been feeling off, for lack of a better word, these last few weeks. Not like myself. My confidence has been waning, I’m struggling to lock down a new job during a time when all I want to do is move on to the next and better thing. I tend to compare myself to a nomad, I don’t tend to stay in one place for very long. When I feel I have gotten all I can from a place I become restless and feel trapped when I cannot get out.
Here are a few things that have been running through my head:
- I want to leave Maryland but have no feasible way of doing so at the moment.
- I am searching for a new job but have been met with nothing but radio silence/rejection.
- I am homesick.
- My next potential move, should it work out, could take me far away and that is a frightening concept.
- I have absolutely no idea what I am doing dating-wise and my confidence when it comes to boys has never been great.
I’ve been wrestling with all of this for weeks now. Maybe a month, I’m not sure. And while the mental health weekend did help – it far from solved my problems.
My mom gave me a book quite a few years ago, back when I was in college. I can’t recall the title at the moment but it was written for women in AA who need a little help keeping themselves in the moment and connecting to the present.
Anxiety keeps me spinning in the ether a lot of the time, so when I have rough moments I read it to keep me locked in today.
Last night when I was reading the entry for today, January 10th, I came across a few things that were really poignant to me. It really stuck out in relation to me taking a mental health weekend to feel better about my current situation. So I will leave a few of my favorite lines from it – in case anyone else aside from myself needs a reminder:
- “Laughter recharges our entire being; every cell is activated. We come alive, and full vitality restores us physically and emotionally.”
- “It’s never too late to turn our lives around, to laugh instead of complain.”
- “We all want health and happiness in ourselves and others, and we can find it by creating it. The best prescription for whatever ails us may well be a good laugh.”